When life tosses you a curve ball, you gotta stop and wonder why it insists on playing baseball.

An astute observer would say that it is I who have thrown a curve ball - to myself - and so I should be prepared for it. I wasn’t, but there’s some consolation in my belief that I don’t think I ever could have been.

When previous relationships ended it was relatively easy to go on. Well, sort of. My first was difficult to get over. The thing with this one is that I was so used to being with Sarah. It just was. Kelly told me that Jason reacted to the news of our breakup thusly: “WHAT?! Tell him to get back together! They can’t be broken up.” I guess I wasn’t the only one who was used to it.

Our history - our momentum - was what was keeping me in it near the end. It is difficult to let go. It was the right thing to do, but it wasn’t any easier for that being true. Sarah will move on and find someone better suited to her. I want to be single for a while, if only to get some perspective. And yet I find myself jealous of Hawk. Ack.

And of course j2 had to go and hire a gorgeous administrative assistant just as I was deciding this. Oh well - the greater the challenge, the greater the reward.

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